Sleep early, It`s good for you.

2010-06-03T03:47:00.001-07:00

So I guess I have officially moved:

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Also - ask me anything anonymously (or not)
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tumblr

2010-02-15T22:21:00.001-08:00

I don't know if i'm graduating to tumblr or not because tumblr seems to be in between tweeting and blogging since it has to be like, short quips about media stuff....

but here it is...

www.maryrosa.tumblr.com

i get a dslr when i graduate. sickkkk

love u bye.

School Updates Plus Falling in Love with Napoleon

2010-01-27T19:06:00.000-08:00

Just feel like blogging. I'm in my fluency disorders class and everyones just talking. Seriously... 700-945PM classes are NOT the business.

A few observations about my undergrad major. Too many old white people who think they know everything. And too many post-bacs taking up all the seats. And too many petitioners. But that's usually me. Not this time! Gaahhhd.

Since I expressed to my advisor that I'm not applying to Speech Pathology grad school, she let me substitute a clinical methods class for a diversity class and I am FREAKIN stoked about that because I went from having just 2 written exams and a comprehensive final to 2 take home exams and 5 journal entries. Life ... Is... Goood.

Another update because my mind is fickle. I swearr! 3 weeks ago my future showed a promising craniofacial nurse, the next week, a clinical psychologist... Now I have decided that I can try myself in getting a Master's in social work. It fits. At least that's how I feel for now. Gonna do more research on it though. I've talked to 3 advisors this week -- that was seriously exhausting. But my road to grad school is feeling less and less scary. The road turned from sleepy hollow to wizard of oz. -- Even though wizard of oz's yellow brick road is probably much scarier if you think about it. Anyway.

Ew since when did this become a academic update blog? LOL.

So An-Son and I fell in love with a French Bulldog this week. We decided to name him Napoleon. Still working out the reality of financing the lil guy. Check him out :)

Cum Laude is somewhat within my reach. If I add another 3 unit class to my load, I may be able to pad my GPA. Is it worth it to me? I'm not sure! I'm really just shy of the honor by like 1 point! Can I punch myself ughhh. I blame it on getting a B in aerobics class at cypress LOL. I should have attended more!

PS for those of you who know... CACKS is updated. :)

PPS Sorry friends about how shitty my bday was at Les Deux. And I hope our friendship is still ok :D loves you.

Personal Politics

2010-01-20T02:45:00.000-08:00

Iago:
O, beware, my lord, of jealousy;
It is the green-ey'd monster, which doth mock
The meat it feeds on. That cuckold lives in bliss,
Who, certain of his fate, loves not his wronger:
But O, what damnèd minutes tells he o'er
Who dotes, yet doubts, suspects, yet strongly loves!

Othello:
O misery!

-- Why is everything a political struggle in my mind?
Why am I bred for competition? Actually, I take that back, I'm not sure I'm cut from the fabric of competition. I think that I was conditioned for it. I have this insane flaw and its the need to always be better. This effects me so much that I am never happy with myself. WTFUUUH. I also hate it when other people can see my weaknesses. It's such a asian cultural trait. I need to keep face, seem whole, exude confidence, never waiver, be a ROCK. Like a kamikaze pilot, go big or go home.

I hate to admit that I have insecurities even though its obvious.

O misery!

Decompressing and Procastinating.

2010-01-19T20:04:00.000-08:00

2 days left of my winter session class.
5 days until my last semester at Fullerton.
3 classes away from finishing my undergrad.
1 semester away from having a BA.
5 months to becoming a college graduate.
Even though I already have an AA but this is different...

Then off to grad school to start the countdown all over again...
ahh haha. It's a delirious kind of laugh really.
"why do we do what we do when we do?" (hangin out late with no curfew lol.) Name that tune.

I'm blogging to procrastinate another paper yet again. Actually 3 papers. Winter session is an ass kicker but it sure beats taking this research class during the regular semester.

My roommates dog is dragging his ass on the carpet. Must be itchy. I always scold him for doing it but what can he do if his ass is itchy?

I really want to blog about something substantial but right now I have so many things on my mind. Some of things are as follows:

I have realized that I am no longer going to pursue Speech Path. I know that I have great potential to become whatever I want. But really, what is that I want to do? I can go to any grad school I can do whatever profession, but what do I want? I've put thought into law school, and have actually shown some interest in the field of prosecution for animal cruelty... But An-Son denies that this is a lucrative career, he's probably right. Then there's doing a post-bac for nursing. It's like every filipino's backburner weapon. Nursing is in our genes, if we fail at something else we just take on the medical field. But, I swear... I feel like I'm meant to do something else with my life. Then there's clinical psychology. I love the field, I love the material... But I seriously will probably hate all the research. But if I think about it, if I had to do research in any field, I would mostly enjoy the psych field. I'm empathetic, and a scholar -- not to mention I have an innate understanding of the human psyche. Which leads me to my next thought, if I grow weary of pursuing a clinical psychology MA, or decide it's not for me... I could use it towards social work. It's probably a really difficult field to endure, but I bet it's quite rewarding.

It's like I'm coming to the end of the tunnel, I saw the light, but now I'm being blinded by the possibilities. The end of this tunnel is a huuuuge opening to a vast amount of opportunity. I need to harness my talents and choose something that can make a difference.

So here I am now, sitting in my kitchen typing in this blog window, instead of researching definitions from different scholarly journals and I'm dying to be done with this school stuff! This weekend I have a sorority retreat at big bear. Ahhh and with all this rain I am certain that there'll be fresh powder. I'm looking forward to it. PS. I am so cute in boarding gear. Don't be jealous!

The boyfriend made me food for dinner and hazelnut milk. (BOMB) He's now watching a movie he rented from redbox to stay out of my hair. Little does he know I've been tinkering away on the computer avoiding research. It's good to have people who love you in your life. Support transcends any medicine.

Well I guess I can't prolong this anymore.

See You Soon...

Love,
Magnolia

Another Update 2010

2010-01-13T22:22:00.000-08:00

To be apart of something.
Everyone wants that.

I'm reading The Beach. It's pretty good.

I have a research paper due tomorrow at 9, i haven't even read the guidelines. I'm exhausted from the day and I wish I could just really curl up in bed and read.

My family is great. I love themmmm

F O

2010-01-06T22:53:00.001-08:00

fuck
off

Just an Update for 2009 :)

2010-01-05T22:26:00.000-08:00

I'm updating for the sake of keeping this blog alive a little bit.

Hi everyone!
Current thing making me happy:

Here is the dress that I bought today @ fashion island. Tell me why the nearest bcbg to me has to be in newport beach?! I seriously had to trek for this one hah. I tried to buy it online and they sold out. Darn you nordy's online!

I plan on wearing this to my birthday, and to Thi-Anh's wedding in February. It was worth a pretty penny I tell ya, and the bf told me it was an impulse buy, when in actuality it took me almost a week to decide! So it's not on impulse. This is me rationalizing this purchase. Anyhoo, i love it. I'm almost back to my pale self again so the blue against my skin looks nice. Since I dyed my hair back to black I look extra ghostly. It's lovely -__- hah. Good for winter though.

An-Son got the job at AnQi so that's pretty cool. hermm....

I'm taking winter session, a research methods class. I have papers everyday, but still surviving.

April's in town. That's exciting :)

Jessica comes home tomorrow :)

I decided that... when I go snowboarding this season, I'm going to buy pink snowboarding pants. lol.

Ok that's enough rambles for now.
TATA poopheads!

Oh chyeaa - An-Son and I decided we're going to get a bulldog. Yup. And we're going to name him Eggzington. Eggzy for short. Or just Eggs. Haha. I know. -- Really though. First it was just Eggs, we were going to spell it Aegs. Then I told him that I wanted to name our dog after a president, since Franklin is named after a President, and all my past fish have been named after notorious historical war figures. He said, what president is franklin name after again? Benjamin Franklin? Why does everyone think Benjamin Franklin was a president! Lol. No, Franklin D. Roosevelt!!! Get it? Franklin D Rosa-velt? -- Franklin Dabu Rosa.... Oh nevermind. But I got the idea to name Franklin after that Paramore song because I thought I was moving to Vegas, but that's a whole other story.

So we combined George Washington + Eggs = Eggzington

Eggzington the Bulldog.

I still think we should get a Bull Terrier, Boston Terrier or a Miniature Airedale Terrier. SO CUTE!

My Thoughts on Parents Texting

2009-12-23T19:55:00.001-08:00

Procrastinating my research methods paper.
Whyyyy did I choose to take this during winter session whyyyy!
:shakes fists at sky:

@_@ Communication Theory Process -_____-

So ... I think parents in my parents' generation who learn how to text are smart to do that because it enhances the communication with their children. Honestly, when your parents call you and you're hanging out with a bunch of people, you usually probably silence it or totally dread picking it up. I noticed that if my mom calls me I'm less likely to call her back in a timely manner rather than if she were to just text me. It's brief and to the point and I can discretely text back and no one will hear my conversation with my mom. Simple and easy. I don't know I think it's cool when parents get with the times.

My mom texts "hihi" when she's laughing
and says things like 'gudnite'

I find that funny. Oh parents.

My Day Recap.

2009-12-19T23:07:00.001-08:00

Watched Grey's until 3AM
Nancy came over at 4AM
Woke up for sorority meeting at 720AM
Drove to Beverly Hills to eat at Lawry's at 10A -- Stuck in traffic until 12P!
Drove to visit the boyf in Monterey Park @ work
Drove to Dr's Appt at 5 -- barely made it and sat next to this weirdo who was talking to himself in the waiting room. CUREEEPYYY
Dinner with my Mom
Drove back to Fullerfun
Decided not to go to LB anymore for Jaymie's Grad Celebration -- tired too much driving

Whatta day.

Stocking opening night! Yeeee!

Hmphhhhhh

Tumblr DSLR

2009-12-09T14:09:00.001-08:00

I will be active on my tumblr blog once I get a DSLR.
It seems like the right thing to do. hah

Too bad that won't be for awhile.

POOp

Sharacic - Vujapova

2009-11-29T12:36:00.000-08:00

Marsha / Saria ?
EEEE ! :D

Picture taken from: http://twitpic.com/rhgdh

Crash and Burn Dummies for Love

2009-11-25T16:55:00.000-08:00

I've run into this idea many times before. A text update session with my pledge sister urged me to blog about this... She just broke up with her boyfriend and given the circumstances one of her texts were as follows:

"It's not like I didn't already know, guys never marry the girls that change them. they marry the one after"

I couldn't have said this any better myself. I have always truly believed this but I never verbalized it. Most of us have had that one boyfriend who you just stuck with through the good the BAD and the downright UGLY. You loved unconditionally, you gave all you could until you could no more, and to no avail, you broke up. There you are all cried out all emotionally spent over a boy who you just could not invest into anymore. Then comes the next girl, and he treats her every way you wish he treated you. He learned from his mistakes and because of your hardships, this girl will enjoy his love.

It's really a road that goes both ways, boys and girls who F up, treat the next carefully with what they have learned. Experience, Improve, Love.

I just thought this was really relevant in a lot of aspects of my life. I have truly F'd up in past relationships, and also endured really bad ones as well. You see the next girls come, you hurt but you're happy in the end.

More importantly. THANK YOU to the girl(s) who messed up with my boyfriend. He is freaking amazing to me and you did all the work. Thanks for enduring, thanks for sucking, and thanks for letting me have my chance to happiness.

Tis the holidaysssss - Be Merry, be Joyful and be a Lady

Michelle Branch - Everywhere (Official Music Video)[HQ]

2009-11-24T16:03:00.001-08:00

Oh Gahd Michelle Branch in her prime... well before Game of Love with Santana. Oh Michelle why couldn't you just be frozen in time?

I named my guitar after you baby...

DinoFrank

2009-11-20T21:10:00.000-08:00

New Painting :)

T-Giving Break Begins...

2009-11-20T11:27:00.000-08:00

Just me and Rex this weekend.
Rev Run said something on his twitter that really stuck with me and I always think about it. Jealousy is the dissatisfaction with ones self. So true. The only cure then? Improve yourself!

Improve yourself.

No Ali this week. Noooo how the hell am I going to survive? I have early onset of Rex's damage! Fuckle. For those of you who have no clue what I'm talking about, Rex is not a person hah. It's not drugs either if that's what you're thinking!!!!

Chasing Monday after the break.

My Thanksgiving break plans (other than work):

Sleeping, lots and lots of sleeping.
Craniofacial Project - Voice assessments :(
Hanging out with my Mama
Grey's Anatomy Season 3 , possibly 4
QT with the BF hopefully
See the GIRLS! Pleease!

Demi Lovato - Catch Me (Lyrics on Screen) HQ

2009-11-11T10:55:00.001-08:00

On another note, this song makes me feel nice. I finally got the demi cd, it's good!

Vent Sesh Nov 11

2009-11-11T10:43:00.000-08:00

I got about 1 hour of sleep last night. Normally I'd be saying this after a full night of wild rumpus but I actually went to bed somewhat early, which is why I'm so upset. I have to work a full shift today, go home and work on a cultural video for the sorority, and then study for an exam that I have at 8AM tomorrow. I haven't gone to that class for 2 weeks! I'm SCREWED. And sad. And frustrated. & Upset.

The 1 hour that i DID sleep I dreamt about being at work so pretty much when I woke up from that 1 hour I felt shitty already. ughhh fates why do you hate me so.

I'm really really over my job. There's no room for advancement and anything real estate related irritates me. I'm also really over school. I'm ready to just make money and not be dictated by my school schedule and teachers and material that doesn't interest me. I'm truly chasing that feeling of graduating. Until then I'll just have to endure.

Sadly my goals have come down to just graduating, getting a job that will seriously at least pay my rent and just live a little! I feel like I've been drowning in the school system for too long I need a damn break. I'm putting my professional endeavors on hold to actually experience life the way I want to and maybe chase my dreams sans the academia. For an asian person, I feel like we don't approve if this type of lifestyle. White people do it all the time! There is another way people!

I wanna make money. I wanna buy things that don't matter. I wanna go to the gym everyday after work. I wanna come home to my own apartment where I can say that I furnished it myself. I just want to be without my current job and school.

It sucks that I have to wait though. Wait til May to graduate and wait until July to quit because I won't have enough funds to finance my rent. FUCKLE. That's life though, duh I'm an adult. Adults have jobs they hate and do things they don't wanna do just to get by, like go to school. UGhhh Real life sucks.

Myyy Artwork

2009-11-06T11:12:00.000-08:00

Here are my recent artworks. I did this yesterday actually. Photos are sucky bc they're from my phone.

I used acrylic paint and a sponge paintbrush lol, yes a sponge one. I didn't want to ruin my roommates expensive brushes i might ruin them. :X I didn't even use a canvas bc i didn't want to waste any.

NEXT TIME! :)

Just Looking Back

2009-11-06T10:50:00.000-08:00

I was just looking through old blogs, and I've reinforced the fact that I am able to tackle goals that I set forth in my life. Sure everyone can say that but I don't know, I'm impressed by myself.

My blogs in 2007 kept saying that for 2008 I wanted to come out of my shell and start dancing at clubs instead of being an awkward wallflower, i wanted to be more social and expand my social web and in 2008 I ended up pledging for my sorority, expanded my social network 10fold and because I turned 21 in 2008, I think the alcohol helped with the actual dancing at clubs so now I can dance sober like it ain't no thang LOL.

A lot can change in a few years. A lot.

I'm glad I saw that I wanted to change myself in that realm of life, now moving onto more work for change.

@_@

2009-11-05T22:20:00.000-08:00

ugh gimme meds dammit.

Just - Thoughts, randomized 10/28

2009-10-28T16:04:00.000-07:00

Registering for last semester of college.
Must... Get.... Cum... Laude....
How did I manage to screw myself just .04 under the cutoff. UGH
But how much does this really mean to me?
It would be nice. BUT Dammit!

@_@
I will definitely have no sleep next semester.
Neither will I get any for the rest of this semester!

FUG-hole.
FackMERC.

MONEY - I have none

Dreaming of Avalon at Anaheim.
Please only serious inquiries. :B

Boyfriend is amazing.

Life is just starting. It's frightening.

Every week I decide I might wanna do something new. I'm trying to find the nearest craniofacial centers in the area, and Los Angeles has a few. I want to see if I can get an entry level job there and maybe work a year just testing the waters... Then if I like it I'll go to nursing school so I can just become a craniofacial center nurse and be apart of team! That'd be sick. Not sure about surgical nurse tho.

But the whole nurse thing, still don't know :(. These are just ideas!

I need to make time for myself. Ughh I really am starting to hate this zig zagging back and forth between cerritos and fullerton. I need a new job, but my school schedule is a buttfxck.

I have 1 funny coworker. But he's hardly around. Otherwise work is a bore. But I'm all over facebook and you knoww it.

Halloween - mehhh

Age of the Air Signs

2009-10-21T15:34:00.000-07:00

So...
All of my past boyfriends and my current boyfriend are AIR signs.
What does that say about me?

libra, aquarius, aquarius, gemini

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

UPDATES. Real Life. October.

2009-10-15T00:06:00.000-07:00

OK so friends... I haven't seen you for quite some time. I think I should update you on my life's happenings! Even though I'm pretty up to date with this blog, weekly... I think I should delve into it.

School
I haven't been doing well. Not gonna lie. I mean compared to how I usually am at least. But I got invited to be in that Golden Key Honour Society and I paid my thing so I'm happy about that. I keep putting off applying to grad school because idk what the hell to do with my life so I'm idling.

Roomie
Couldn't have asked for a better one. She's cool, i hope you guys meet her soon? I know we're girl haters but she's lovely! :) Yes I'm quite drunk in this picture below.

Believe it or not, this was before.

Boyfriend
Still in the honeymoon phase. I'm Happy. Content, and getting fatter Lol. That's how you can tell right? But pretty much all my free time goes to this loveable, huggable critter. Also -- this dog (my roomie's) HATES boys. He can smell them a mile away and I am not kidding. Cutest cockblock you'll ever meet. He will literally probably foam at the mouth if there is a guy standing in the hallway outside our apartment and we wouldn't even know if it was a guy or not. But apparently An-Son has won his heart over, or should I say... Stomach. He fed him STEAK!

Me
Well? I'm working on a few things. New therapist, tougher issues. Not zanny'ing anymore! Lol. Uhhhm. Figuring out what life is after graduation or at least trying to plan it. Living on my own. Wanting to really really really quit my job. &&Dreaming of moving to that apartment complex in Anaheim by the Angel's stadium. Yea the one that Zeb and Chris Cruz live in. My lease ends in 9 months... ANY TAKERS? I needs a roomie. :) PLEEEAASE its so nice there!

My sleep issue has been getting a lot better! I sleep better. But that is probably also because I have a big bear in my bed 3 nights a week. But still. I'm starting to get a good 5 hrs of sleep every other night, that's pretty good.

I got sick last week (as always) and I'm slowly recovering .. whew. Thank Goodness it was mostly over the weekend.

My formals is this weekend. &&On halloween I plan on hanging with Polly. Let's all do something! K?

That's my update.
YOUR TURN!

Painting

2009-10-14T00:53:00.001-07:00

Its finally on Youtube! yeee.

Internet is slow at my apartment and I haven't had the chance to upload it elsewhere. So I uploaded it in class. :)

It's A Wonderful Life

2009-10-08T10:44:00.001-07:00

What is it you want Mary?
You want the moon?
Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down.
Hey that's a pretty good idea.
I'll give you the moon Mary.

I'll take it.

Mr. moon - Kate Micucci

2009-10-05T13:19:00.001-07:00

In Honor of the Moon Festival! :D

123 GO!

2009-10-04T18:22:00.001-07:00

Currently my life is one big sleep over.
Santa Barbara Bound.

When will I ever settle down!

Painting Picture Timeline Time! :)

2009-10-02T14:30:00.000-07:00

We bumped music the whole time... We got through a couple of ipod playlists and at one point we were so in the zone that we were completely silent. Good times.

Random Friday Thoughts 10/2

2009-10-02T13:41:00.000-07:00

I hate working on Fridays. Often times I find myself wondering why I haven't quit yet. Oh I know why. RENT

Overall, I truly am happy. I like where I am right now. I'm moved out and independent (for the most part), I have a boyfriend who takes care of me and keeps me happy, the best roommate ever with the sickest ass painting in our kitchen (see below), and I am on the road to mental wellness. Sure there are a few arenas in my life that need some work, but it's all in progress so it's all good baby!

We used Acrylic paint and bought the canvas at Michael's for $30 buckaroonies. Good Price, no?

Soon I will be posting up a video of us painting it -- Not in real time though, because it took almost 5 hours to do!

I have been watching Friends Season DVDs at my apartment for almost a month now, and I'm not sure how much longer I will be able to last. I'm going to invest in one of those digital converters soon. You better believe it. Shyoooot.

Things we still need:
Microwave
TV for the kitchen?
Converter Box@!!!

Bye Ya'll!

Brudda & Sista Mon!

2009-09-25T14:01:00.000-07:00

I see family as a permanent fixture.
Some people serve as furniture or space fillers in your life you know? On the other hand, other people are definitely staples, things you cannot live without.

I become jealous sometimes of people who have siblings. You may not be close, but there is something about sibling relationships that fascinate me. I mean there is a closeness and a bond that I won't ever understand or experience.

Some people, I have observed, aren't very close to their kin but I have noticed in the past with people who I grew very close to, that even though they're not close to their siblings, they would still do anything for them or be there for them at the drop of the dime, just because they're family. That's a pretty cool thing. If I had siblings, i'd be pretty proud to be related to them. I hope? But then again what if I got dealt a joker card LOL and I'd have like a really shitty brother or sister who was all doped up and a fxckup.

Hmmm maybe I take it back!

Only Children ROCK!

LOL.

Ok i'm gonna go punch myself now haha.

I wrote both halves of this blog at 2 different times of the day, hence my change of thought.
OH WELL. 8)

Support Boobies!

2009-09-24T15:33:00.000-07:00

Please support me in my race! http://www.ockomen.com/race/maryrosa For the cure! :)

I will be in the race this Sunday!

Thank you to those who have already donated...

Matthew Encina -- 40,000,000.00
Jason Yang -- 50,000,000.00
Sandy Dabu -- 50,000,000.00

You guys must REALLY Loooove BQQBIES!
<333

Manabooboo Updates

2009-09-23T11:15:00.000-07:00

So things are finally starting to settle & I'm actually starting to catch up on sleep.

Now all I have to do is get my academic path/career path under control and I'll feel OK. You know you're getting older when your academic and career paths begin to merge. I mean they were always correlated (for most of us) but when they actually start to come together it's really scary. It's nice to know that most of my friends are in the same boat as I. (Thanks Toni for the talkies!)

So I just got told that there will be a Halloween potluck at my work on the 30th. &&Costumes are required. I'm afraid to come in a costume and then be the only one LOL. I don't know what I want to be though. But we'll see.

FRIENDS: What are we doing this Halloween?! Anything? PS I miss you sorry I've been MIA.

This weekend An-son and I went on a mini-trip to SD - it was fun, and relaxing.

What good would a boyfriend be if he didn't drive u

Check out the goatee on the babygoat! baaaa.

Wicked, here we come! San Francisco!!!!!!!

Don't Ask!

2009-09-17T10:57:00.001-07:00

Some girls including myself are so stupid!
Why do we ask questions we really don't want to know the answers to.

Really... You know the answer.
You know you have this expectation that the answer will be something different.

Then it's not.
Then there's this pang of disappointment that throbs in your belly.
You try to play it off like it doesn't bother you.
Brush it off your shoulder.
Calm as hindu cows.

Even though whatever it is that you wanted to know is resonating in your mind.

Wait, maybe that's just me.
Do all girls do this?

This is why guys aren't as crazy as girls. (The ones who aren't all sensitive and pussy-ish-- I know a few that are soooo sensitive ughh) They're so simple. They don't think about things that don't really matter. Why do we girls just dig and dig. Sucks

Just reflecting in class. Jumbled Thoughts on Caffeine!

2009-09-17T08:29:00.001-07:00

So here is that one time (maybe twice) a year where I actually drag my ass to starbucks and purchase something caffeinated, being that I didn't have access to a can of Pepsi or Coke. I have an exam in about 5 hours and I'm in my first class. I am pretty much fueled on Chai Tea Latte right now.

If it were possible to measure sleep in negatives, I'd probably be down about... -20 right now. These past few weeks have been quite hectic (but not bad!). A lot of changes, a lot of responsibility and a lot of prioritizing. Perhaps I'm not prioritizing wisely by putting my relationship above other things, but I'm doing what makes me happy. And at this point in my life, this is whats important to me. Without this support I'd probably be a wreck (more so than I already am :P)

OK so my first class starts at 830, and usually I get here at EXACTLY 830 being that I have to park in G-Lot which is basically 1 freeway exit away from the building this class is in. I get here huffing and puffing and glistening a little bit because I usually book it here from my car. I often wonder, how the hell do people get here so early? I usually sit in the back... Today I got here at about 7:50. I figured this out. Either you have to get here early, and you get close ass parking, therefor you are reaaaaally early for class. OR you get here on time, get parking in Lot G and hike your ass to class. There is no in between!

Other thoughts:
I noticed that I am not a pusher. (Insert drug pusher reference from Mean Girls here) I am one of those people who hate to ask for help, even though sometimes I do but that usually means I'm really comfortable with that person. But mostly, I don't ask people for help or push people to do things. I usually wait for them to volunteer themselves. I wouldn't much consider myself a pushover because of this, but I realize that I end up putting a big burden on myself in lots of situations. I'm starting to change this.

Jealousy in regards to relationships-- I think it's a healthy thing (to a certain extent!) Some, like myself may take it a little too far. I'm working on it :) However, I feel that jealousy is a healthy thing to feel. To me, it is an indicator that you feel that your sigfig is valuable. I know they say Love (not that I'm in love or whatever) is not jealous bla bla bla. But the jealousy that I'm referring to may be different. Or I could be wrong. But I think some jealousy is healthy. I feel that a relationship without jealousy is weird? If I wasn't jealous in any form, then I don't know what makes that person more special than others? Does that make sense? I'd probably not be with them in the first place... Hmmmm. OK my thoughts aren't really relaying correctly when I try to verbalize them. So that's all I'm going to say ahha.

I'm EXCITED for the OFFICE PREMIERE! wth happened to 30 rock?! hullllooo

OK i'm going to sleep all weekend, I deserve it.

Bye Ya'll.

Steel Wool

2009-09-12T22:53:00.001-07:00

I can never remember the words "steel wool"

I don't know why!

Food Storage Milestone

2009-09-11T11:01:00.001-07:00

I own a fridge.
It's a weird feeling. Haha.
A good one though.
I'm getting older!

Adults own fridges.

New Apartment

2009-09-09T11:36:00.001-07:00

I'll feel better when...
1. I get a fridge
2. Franklin settles
3. Jess is all moved in

I couldn't have survived this weekend without An-son. I am blessed.

Quarter Life Crisis.

2009-09-04T20:28:00.000-07:00

Sigh.
Why does my mom want me to go to Georgetown Law School?
I have probably spiked in anxiety level in a span of 3 days.

Grad school is flooding my mind.
GRE's, LSATS, MCATS
Prerequisites.

Why couldn't I just be Franklin?

I have so many things going through my head.
New Relationship.
New Apartment.
Finances.
Grad School.
Graduating.
Career?

The fck do i do!
I need clarity.
I need to meditate.

Krizia How did you do it?!

Ugh I need a drink.
AND maybe some dancing.
QLC at its worse.

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

2009-09-03T14:51:00.001-07:00

I haven't seen this until today! It's so cute!

Loveline.

2009-09-03T00:50:00.001-07:00

Don't create the circumstances.

Quit Daydreaming and Haiku'ing mannnn

2009-09-01T00:50:00.000-07:00

Going to class is easy.
It's listening in class that's hard.
Reading textbooks are easy.
It's retaining and applying the information that's hard.

Tomorrow Mary, just listen in class. Try to focus for at least 7 hours of your day. The rest of the day you can totally piss away day dreaming or thinking of things you would rather be doing!

So I have been obsessed with a few things lately.

1 The Moon. Cuz the moon is tiiiight. Too bad none of the bookstores around here have cool books about it. But I guess that's a good thing because I should really be studying anyway.

2 Thinking in Haiku form. Which is getting annoying because I'll literally count syllables about things in my day.

3 Money -- Which I hate worrying about -- This thing is what I want to change the most out of all 3 of these obsessions. Ahh this is when you know you're becoming an adult!

4 Wolves -- & Werewolves, but for some reason, wolves moreso than werewolves. I've been occasionally awoo'ing when I have small amounts of alcohol in my system, sending annoying awoo texts randomly, and googling wolf stuff on the internet. Not to mention my costume for the New Moon premiere yeeee!

Glenn Beck Loses His Mind On A Caller About Healthcare

2009-08-29T13:22:00.001-07:00

i HATE Glenn Beck!

Fuckin Idiot.

People come to America for treatment not because we can afford it, but because we are more technologically advanced.

HEALTHCARE SHOULD BE AFFORDABLE!

OMG I seriously want to fucking choke this guy.
SO immature.

Obviously he has no real knowledge of what he's talking about, he's so childish and defensive and his arguments aren't even sound!

ughhhhhhh

Education is Taxing

2009-08-26T01:53:00.000-07:00

It's so much easier to sit through an 8 hour shift of work than to sit through 8 hours of class. Even if class isn't even in consecutive 8 hours, wtf. I have been complaining all summer about work and I just had my first day of school and I am beat.

I actually look forward to going to work tomorrow morning.
What a change.

I forget how draining school is.

I have a professor who says "bra bra bra" instead of "bla bla bla"

Do Not Eat Glowsticks

2009-08-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

There were glow sticks left in the camping box from when I went camping with An-son &friends and my mom asked if she could have them so I said yeah. Today when I got home she took the glow stick out of the foil wrapper and asked me, "How do you eat this?"

Apparently she thought it was one of those otter pops and tried to open it and drink it while she was driving to work in the car.

OMGGGGAAAAH.

Tasty Beverage.

2009-08-20T20:42:00.001-07:00

Don't mess this one up Mary.

Bright Eyes - "First Day of My Life"

2009-08-17T11:19:00.001-07:00

I can finally relate.
:)

Bring me down to earth someone!

Flowers

2009-08-10T12:51:00.000-07:00

Why aren't flowers gender neutral?
Flowers are apart of nature...

People can give gifts like wine or a basket of cheese to other people, couples, families, singles, etc. And a gift like that would not be crossing any gender role boundaries. But why is it that the gesture of giving flowers is only from a male to a female. Why is a female giving flowers to a male a gesture outside of social norm? It's so... archaic. Flowers are natural, shouldn't both gender's enjoy? Are we as women just brainwashed by media while growing up that we SHOULD like flowers? How come men don't like flowers? I like flowers but I'd be sad if I were a man and the only time I got flowers was to wear it on my lapelle at a wedding or prom. Just a thought.

Early Morning Thoughts 8/8/2009

2009-08-08T02:25:00.000-07:00

"Take a Chill Pill"
Recreationally?

Why do dogs like to eat vaseline? When my dog barks at night I open the jar just to distract him so he doesn't wake anyone up. haha

New Moon Trailers Oooh Baby

2009-08-07T16:58:00.001-07:00

Can you tell me why I just watched the New Moon Trailers from Comic-Con and got crazy ass full body chills.

I'm gonna dress up as a wolf at the premiere. I don't care what you think. LOL

I Want My Very Own Jacob Black

2009-08-04T15:50:00.000-07:00

The clouds I can handle.
But I can’t fight with an eclipse.
Jacob Black, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.600

<3 Thump Thump.

Nothing Gold Can Stay

2009-08-04T14:36:00.000-07:00

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

- Robert Frost

YT in My Dreams Again!

2009-08-01T03:38:00.000-07:00

Last night I had a dream that I was dating Kevjumba.

OK i SERIOUSLY watch too much youtube.

YT Celeb BF

2009-07-30T11:32:00.001-07:00

I had a dream that Timothy Delaghetto was my boyfriend.
WTF
hahahha.

o man.

Hawaii 06

2009-07-30T02:17:00.001-07:00

Im home now

Hawaii 05

2009-07-27T13:00:00.001-07:00

We Don't wanna Leave

Kuu Akole Pappolo -- Day 4

2009-07-26T11:48:00.001-07:00

The days are winding down :(
I am a happy panda.
I don't want to leave.

Hawaii 03

2009-07-25T20:58:00.001-07:00

Adventuress!

Hawaii 2009 - 02

2009-07-24T03:43:00.001-07:00

Day 2

Hawaii 2009 - 1

2009-07-23T05:47:00.001-07:00

What/ what/ whuuuuuuuuuut. hahhahhaa

HI, HI!

2009-07-21T21:33:00.001-07:00

Leaving for Hawaii tomorrow, I'll be documenting it -- So you can see it via youtube!

Today -- had the worse fever I've had ... in a loooong time.
Never felt this disgusting over a sickness.

Hopefully I'm better before my flight.

Now, time to pack.

Summer 2009 - The summer we became boys.

2009-07-19T15:53:00.000-07:00

I knew a theme would arise soon enough.

Hi blog!
Just been doing hoodrat stuff with my friends.

:) C'ya

Loooove,
Melvin, Marvin, Malcom

Can't Think Of a Title

2009-07-13T14:02:00.000-07:00

We live in the age of quick fixes and instant gratification.

Don't be back burnered.

Those were just 2 separate thoughts, unrelated.

Fence teetering.
Need to find happiness.
Cut the jokes.
Many many jokes.
Not funny.

Jokes meaning people.

FYL

2009-07-13T03:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes things just have to be put in perspective.
Or buried.

haha.

3:30A and I'm still awake.
Full work shift tomorrow.
weeeeeeeeee it's totally summer.

Bring it on baby!

Eyes Closed

2009-07-12T02:42:00.000-07:00

I wanna get lost.

I Am

2009-07-09T11:24:00.000-07:00

I'm completely adequate.
Thank you very much!

Refreshed

2009-07-07T16:34:00.001-07:00

I found my glasses :)
It's been over 2 months.
I can see again!

Now alls I need is to get a new driver's license and I'll be a new woman.
hah.

Intuition

2009-07-03T20:44:00.001-07:00

Trust your gut.

Too Much Fun

2009-07-02T01:33:00.001-07:00

I don't wanna grow up.

Sarah Bareilles Love Song

2009-06-29T12:29:00.000-07:00

"Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that"

Heard this driving to work today.
I was inspired a little.

Can You Just Decide?

2009-06-28T22:51:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking about blogging about this topic for a while and a recent issue of Cosmo kind of covered it in one of their articles.

A major turn off character trait in the opposite sex for me is...
INDECISION
Hands down, this can make me upset in a matter of seconds.
&I bet you girls feel the same way sometimes.

I feel that indecision is just an indicator of how lazy a guy (or person) is. I understand that chivalry is dead, (or is it?) and that it is the 21st century so we can't be relying on men to make every decision for us. However, when it comes to courting and dating and even when you have a boyfriend, I find that a decisive person is very attractive.

Cosmo touched base with this idea by mentioning that men that take charge are sexier to women, and that being wishy-washy is a sign of weakness. They encourage men to do little things that take initiative like making dinner reservations or guiding women by the small of her back when walking into a crowd. I totally agree, sure these are small gestures, but they speak volumes to women even if they may not think about it directly.

I just cannot stress how many times I've probably had to play the 'man' in my relationships with guys or just people in general. Where should we go? OHh I don't know. Where do you wanna eat? What should we do? I feel like... If I don't make a decision we'll just idle around for life. I swear. And a girl can only be the guy for so long... I feel like wait a minute, am I the boyfriend here? I know I know OK so whatever happened to equality? Well -- then make it fair to me too then.

How did people become so lame? Why can't you just DECIDE. I mean honestly I know sometimes deciding is hard, and I have a difficulty doing it as well. But I feel that I sure a hell am more decisive than most people I know.

There have been few people in my life who are decisive. They'll say things like hey we should have breakfast at so and so restaurant then go shopping in that area, I know you've never been there. That's powerful. Just the thought or idea of planning something like that will probably make any girl happy. Or even just initiating something small like, let's go have dinner after you get off work, i've been craving sushi. Wanna go to the beach? Let's fly a kite.

These things dont even have to be creative, or outlandish... But I feel that I am pretty much 95% initiating these types of things with my friends or people in general. With the girls, its OK because I know how my girls are sometimes, but I can say that collectively we are a lot more decisive than boys I know. If it weren't for us I bet you'd probably just be sitting at home watching TV. Maybe that's how you want to live your life, but what does that say about you?

I hate having to ask someone like, hey I'm at the store or I'm at Carls Jr what do you want to eat or what kind of beer do you like or WHATEVER question it may be, how hard is it? I feel like when I'm asked these questions and I know that the other person is going out of their way I even force myself to be decisive. But I think its just in my nature to be more considerate than others, that's just another story.

My mom would tell me stories about how my Dad would just call her up and say, hey get dolled up i'm going to take you out tonight. And that was all it took and my mom and him would enjoy some movie premier and he'd take her to some nice restaurant at a hotel. I noticed this a lot about my Dad when I got to spend time with him. He was very decisive and didn't waste time. I think that's probably where I get it from, and why I cherish this trait in others. My dad is a powerful man with a powerful personality. Yet at the same time, if I were to say, Dad i don't wanna eat there or Dad I don't want to go there, he would say ... Ok what do you feel like eating then? So even with this power of decision, he's not a tyrant or controlling. &I feel that is the best balance. Where are the people out there in the world who are this way? Is everyone just wishy washy and my Dad is just one of those rare finds? Or have I just been bred to expect a different level of decision and swift resolution?

In that sense... I view indecisive people as weak. I can only name very very few guys who are decisive and can take charge. The rest of you are all weak in my eyes. hah

The moral of the story: Don't be afraid to take control of your life. Be the best person you can be, woman or man and don't be weak.

Ouch x 2

2009-06-28T17:51:00.001-07:00

Ouch Ouch.

Ouch

2009-06-24T02:20:00.000-07:00

To run away from pain...
Is it smart?
Or is it cowardly?

Or both?

Just Be Patient

2009-06-23T16:27:00.000-07:00

Le prix d'Amour, c'est seulement Amour.
Il faut aimer si l'on veut etre aime.

The price of Love, is simply Love....
One must love if one wants to be loved.

Lexicon Expansion Please

2009-06-21T06:13:00.000-07:00

Overused words by Stephanie Meyer:

Sanguine
Russet (suggested by Martine)
Chagrin
Glower

I'm sure I can think of more but its 6AM me go back to sleep now.

Coronitas are sooo cute.

Kings of Leon - Use Somebody

2009-06-20T18:22:00.001-07:00

I swear -- Singindork888 You make my day. haha

Good song

Bla Bla Bla Yada Yada.

2009-06-19T04:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel like I annoy everyone around me.
I even annoy myself.

I can hear myself talk and mid-sentence I think to myself, "Man.. I'm annoying. I should stop talking."

But this is who I am.

Maybe I just need to surround myself with people on the same wavelength.

On another note.
Dating is a waste of time.
Everything is so predictable.
Impending doom...
I'd rather be miserably happy by myself.
I think?

---

&& Lastly
I keep having this feeling...
That I'm ready.
That I'm done here.

Just thought I'd put it in writing.
Just in case..

---

I Re-read this and I decided I should lighten the mood a little when I end this post.
Here are things I like and make me smile.

1. Really cute bedsheets. The ones on my bed are teal. &my comforter is a down comforter with a cute cover over it with crocheted eyelets.
2. Smelling good. If there is any trait that I can pride in myself it would be that I always try to smell nice. I really hope others think this about me.
3. A good ringtone. The kind that makes you not want to pick up the phone.
4. Protective people.
5. Pay day -- not the chocolate
6. Hello Kitty
7. Having a quiet breakfast somewhere nice, reading a gossip mag.

Ok that's it for now. goodnight.

Antagonist

2009-06-18T11:55:00.000-07:00

Did you ever stop and think that maybe I was made for you?

Haven't You Heard That I'm The New Cancer?

2009-06-16T15:02:00.000-07:00

Turning of the tides.
Next week shall be interesting.

I love my pack.
I know what you're thinking...
Love you girls!

My mom says that she's alone because her Dad was a player and she's being punished. WHAT THE HELL! What does that mean for me! hahahaha. GREAT THANKS DAD.

Hollow Bones Bird Lady

2009-06-15T13:45:00.000-07:00

I'm too young to be this sick!
Time to find a pulmonary specialist.

Eclipse & Jacob Black

2009-06-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

Eclipse just supported all the reasons why I am in love with Jacob Black. Not to be confused with Taylor Lautner, who I have come to the realization is pretty dorky...

This blog has turned into my log of my twilight thoughts haha.

1 more book and it's over :( That makes me really sad.

Now what will I invest all my time and emotion into?! The hunt for another book... That's what.

Favorite quote from a recent communitychannel video: "Oh Hell No Son." haha -- Maybe it's the aussie accent.

Bxtch Fits & Books

2009-06-09T21:53:00.001-07:00

Wups.
I threw a BF today.
I haven't been that upset in a while.
It was short lived but I feel bad! Haha
Sorry whoever was in the path of my fury.
<3

Ok so maybe 2009's theme is "Let's all read!" LOL

It's been almost 2 or is it 3 weeks into summer and I think we haven't even gone wild. Nothing compared to last summer. Are we just warming up? It's OK I don't mind coming home on Tuesday nights to read .... Actually, make that every night. :P

More Twilight Spoilers.

2009-06-06T23:58:00.001-07:00

I guess this is just me recording my thoughts about New Moon. Nothing else to do. Being sick is a little bit rewarding considering I've been resting a lot.

How is Bella so forgiving?
He left her. I guess I don't forgive as easily as she does. He says he loves her... But he doesn't know anything about how she's felt the time he'd been gone. She threw herself off a cliff for goodness sake. Is it weird that I feel like I'd do the same. The thrill of cliff diving is a small price to pay if it takes away from zombie like living. I know what it's like to be numb. Ew look at me relating to this teen angst!

On another note, she's kind of annoying with this whole... thing. IDK, maybe I don't understand because I've never really been on the brink of death by several types of monsters. hah

I choose Jacob Black.
At least I know if I spent time with him I would be happy. It's the more logical, safer decision. She wouldn't hurt Renee or Charlie and her life wouldn't be in as much danger. And even though he knows she doesn't feel the same, he's willing to wait. That's love. Not like cowardly Edward! Freakin just leaving her. ughhhh. Besides -- Werewolves are sexier! I bet his body is all tanned and sexy, compared to Edward's chalky pale cold body.

But the Volturi.

AHH IDK!

Eclipse here I come.

Regarding real things in life other than my fantasy land in books...

- I really want to give in and buy into this DSLR thing! But it's so expensive... The least expensive is around 699, goodness
- Formals... >_< anyway. I have a cute BCBG dress. I'm whatever.
- My cousin sent his wedding invites and put 4 on our RSVP card. That means me bring a date? haha yeah like that's easy right now.
- Next semester I'm up for a challenge. All I can do, is do the best I can do. Some people believe in me, so why can't I? I also hope I have an overload of units -- Yea right like that'll happen.
- I think I know my destiny now -- if destiny is even the right word... But really, I guess I'm happier to know it rather than expect more. I hate that this description is so vague but I don't want to seem emo hah.

Before I started reading again... My thought process resembled facebook status and twitter updates. I'd think in really brief thoughts, making my life a little bit humorous and witty all the time. But now that I've been reading more, I feel like I've been thinking myself as some kind of protagonist. I don't know, I find it interesting.

WARNING! Twilight Spoilers Ahead!

2009-06-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

Ok so since the rest of the girls went cluhbing and I'm at home nursing my sickness, I figure I'll discuss a few themes from Twilight that are really bothering me. Mind you I'm halfway through the New Moon so I don't know everything yet!

It angers me that Edward left Bella. Why if you love someone so much, would you push them away like this even after investing all this time into them? I feel so annoyed because she didn't need this pain to begin with, and he just let her fall in love with him. Then in an instant he rips himself from her and just disappears into the night. Like he doesn't exist anymore. It kind of makes me laugh that this sounds too familiar to me. I feel her pain honestly. It just sucks that she's at home being lonely and hating her life in Forks and he's probably out in some new town being all beautiful and having girls fawn over him and having a jolly good time eating animals in the forest on the weekends.

Why can't Bella just love Jacob already? I think I like Jacob more than I should because I saw the trailer for New Moon and think he's hot. I wonder if he wasn't casted as that ultra hottie would I be as remorseful that she's not completely head over heels for this guy. I know I will be come November... Anyway though, I'm not sure that I'm totally into Jacob yet because I feel like he's more wrapped up in his loyalty to the pack than he is into her. But it's fair because she's not exactly into him the way he wishes she was. If he soon grows that protective brooding sexiness that Edward has, then I'm sold.

Hmmm Werewolf vs Vampire? Which would I choose to be? Probably.... Vampire, they're immortal thats so tight.

But which would I rather date? -- Duh, werewolf. You can snuggle them! LOL.

OK IDK. Back to reading.

It makes me sad to know that this series will end but I'm just going to cherish it while I can haha. I seriously told myself I wouldn't get wrapped up in this twilight cult. I really thought I wouldn't like it so I didn't want to waste my time. But when I got sick and I hit like day 3 of being on bedrest I asked my mom to buy me a book from Target, any best seller and she brings home Twilight... I got stuck and I'm so glad that I did! I love it.

Sometimes watching certain shows and reading books makes me appreciate that I'm single. I forget that with relationships and love comes a lot of disappointment and pangs of sadness.

I leave myself wondering... Will I ever find someone who wants to be there for me? I have people there for me, but not the way I have always pictured it to be? I feel like shows and books and movies glamourize this idea too much. That there will be someone so interested in you that they will make your problems theirs, and you will be so consumed that you will feel fulfilled. Maybe that's the problem? It's easier to say -- Don't search for someone to fulfill you, you should be whole already. Or some shit like that... I don't know. This idea that I have in my head makes sense but when I wrote this all out it just sounds silly.

Addicted

2009-06-02T22:42:00.001-07:00

I wish I could read your mind
Run Really Fast
Be Effortlessly Graceful
Have Super Strength
Watch You Sleep
Shine Like Diamonds in the Sun
and Eat People.

Life is not fair.

I feel crummy.

2009-05-31T22:01:00.000-07:00

Do you spy a Phi?

I can't wait to feel better again.
My room is clean -- Not like this picture.

2009 I'm back.

It All Just Comes Out!

2009-05-30T03:58:00.001-07:00

I've been having a lot of word vomit lately.
Think Mary, think!

Hangers

2009-05-29T01:36:00.001-07:00

I hate when hangers aren't facing the same way.

Just Dance, Gonna Be OK!

2009-05-27T11:39:00.000-07:00

I like to be danced with -- Not danced on.
Eeeeeew

9 Things

2009-05-25T01:19:00.000-07:00

So... I originally logged into my blog so that I could write a vague post about what's bothering me and list several things, no actually dozens of things that are irritating me right now.

But... while logging in I decided that I would try something new and try to list a few things that I actually enjoy about my life that are making me even slightly happy right now.

1. This semester is over. I never thought this day would come.
2. My nephew is getting cuter every time I see him.
3. I applied for graduation today.
4. I met an internet star that I used to have an obsession over haha. (Thanks Deagle)
5. I'm free to be miserable or happy at my own expense! Libertyyy.
6. I'm going to Hawai'i to visit April soon. :D
7. OMGPOP
8. Franklin <3
9. Naps

It was actually hard to think of things. That sucks. But it's OK! I'm alive and well and better off than many in the world.

It's really hard to be let down by the people you count on the most. But it's better to realize it than to hang on to them and disappoint yourself constantly.

So this is me... Moving on.

What Is Love?

2009-05-19T21:43:00.001-07:00

Cheezball Post:

I often find myself comparing what I think love is to a good guitarist accompanied by a good vocalist. Making music is beautiful.

One Of The Few Reasons I Like CSUF.

2009-05-19T12:48:00.000-07:00

Notice how I said like, not love.

Anyway --
ALL NIGHT STUDY

During Finals week:

- Campus is open 24 hours. At least the Titan Student Union (TSU) is.
- At the underground TSU there is free bowling, billiards and massages. Yes. Massages!
- And the ASI goes around wheelbarrowing a bunch of snack goody bags to people studying. Gatorade, granola bars, chips, fruit roll ups, yummy!
- Free Chipotle and CSUF stuff at midnight :) Om Nom Nom.

It really beats sitting there thinking, fuck, its 3AM and I'm still at school. At least you're like, Hey this isn't that bad that I'm here this late. Basically the school is just as busy as it is in the daytime, just quieter :)

I had 3 hours of sleep, I'm cracked out, i freakign PWNED my final this morning. yea suck it! and I'm about to nap all day.

Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am (Cover)

2009-05-16T01:26:00.001-07:00

I'm Theodore. mwahahaha.

I Just Want You - AJ Rafael (Original - Ukulele) [FREE MP3!!!]

2009-05-15T01:45:00.001-07:00

There aren't any good love songs out there anymore...

Is It A Race?

2009-05-13T09:52:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder...
Why am I not doing anything big with my life?
People I know my age are traveling, doing internships at big companies, are in huge organizations that help people worldwide...

But is doing something 'big' with our life, relative?
Maybe what I'm doing is big for myself.

I'm not sure.

Sometimes I feel like where I am in life is just right.
Then sometimes I think I'm way behind.

QLC - I hate you.

What About Me?

2009-05-12T23:33:00.000-07:00

Everyone just wants to belong.

I Saiiiiddddd.....

2009-05-12T11:04:00.000-07:00

Fact: I hate repeating myself.

Just Do It.

2009-05-09T00:58:00.000-07:00

wow.

yeah. like that.

yeeeeeeeah.

2009-05-06T22:23:00.001-07:00

I'm hairy.
Timing is everything.

Oprah's Book Club Idea

2009-05-03T21:09:00.000-07:00

Why have I seen the idea of having sex everyday in a suffering married relationship in like 3 different TV shows already?