So I guess I have officially moved:

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tumblr

I don't know if i'm graduating to tumblr or not because tumblr seems to be in between tweeting and blogging since it has to be like, short quips about media stuff....

but here it is...

www.maryrosa.tumblr.com

i get a dslr when i graduate. sickkkk

love u bye.

School Updates Plus Falling in Love with Napoleon

Just feel like blogging. I'm in my fluency disorders class and everyones just talking. Seriously... 700-945PM classes are NOT the business.

A few observations about my undergrad major. Too many old white people who think they know everything. And too many post-bacs taking up all the seats. And too many petitioners. But that's usually me. Not this time! Gaahhhd.

Since I expressed to my advisor that I'm not applying to Speech Pathology grad school, she let me substitute a clinical methods class for a diversity class and I am FREAKIN stoked about that because I went from having just 2 written exams and a comprehensive final to 2 take home exams and 5 journal entries. Life ... Is... Goood.

Another update because my mind is fickle. I swearr! 3 weeks ago my future showed a promising craniofacial nurse, the next week, a clinical psychologist... Now I have decided that I can try myself in getting a Master's in social work. It fits. At least that's how I feel for now. Gonna do more research on it though. I've talked to 3 advisors this week -- that was seriously exhausting. But my road to grad school is feeling less and less scary. The road turned from sleepy hollow to wizard of oz. -- Even though wizard of oz's yellow brick road is probably much scarier if you think about it. Anyway.

Ew since when did this become a academic update blog? LOL.

So An-Son and I fell in love with a French Bulldog this week. We decided to name him Napoleon. Still working out the reality of financing the lil guy. Check him out :)




Cum Laude is somewhat within my reach. If I add another 3 unit class to my load, I may be able to pad my GPA. Is it worth it to me? I'm not sure! I'm really just shy of the honor by like 1 point! Can I punch myself ughhh. I blame it on getting a B in aerobics class at cypress LOL. I should have attended more!

PS for those of you who know... CACKS is updated. :)

PPS Sorry friends about how shitty my bday was at Les Deux. And I hope our friendship is still ok :D loves you.

Personal Politics

Iago:
O, beware, my lord, of jealousy;
It is the green-ey'd monster, which doth mock
The meat it feeds on. That cuckold lives in bliss,
Who, certain of his fate, loves not his wronger:
But O, what damnèd minutes tells he o'er
Who dotes, yet doubts, suspects, yet strongly loves!

Othello:
O misery!

-- Why is everything a political struggle in my mind?
Why am I bred for competition? Actually, I take that back, I'm not sure I'm cut from the fabric of competition. I think that I was conditioned for it. I have this insane flaw and its the need to always be better. This effects me so much that I am never happy with myself. WTFUUUH. I also hate it when other people can see my weaknesses. It's such a asian cultural trait. I need to keep face, seem whole, exude confidence, never waiver, be a ROCK. Like a kamikaze pilot, go big or go home.

I hate to admit that I have insecurities even though its obvious.

O misery!

Decompressing and Procastinating.

2 days left of my winter session class.
5 days until my last semester at Fullerton.
3 classes away from finishing my undergrad.
1 semester away from having a BA.
5 months to becoming a college graduate.
Even though I already have an AA but this is different...


Then off to grad school to start the countdown all over again...
ahh haha. It's a delirious kind of laugh really.
"why do we do what we do when we do?" (hangin out late with no curfew lol.) Name that tune.

I'm blogging to procrastinate another paper yet again. Actually 3 papers. Winter session is an ass kicker but it sure beats taking this research class during the regular semester.

My roommates dog is dragging his ass on the carpet. Must be itchy. I always scold him for doing it but what can he do if his ass is itchy?

I really want to blog about something substantial but right now I have so many things on my mind. Some of things are as follows:

I have realized that I am no longer going to pursue Speech Path. I know that I have great potential to become whatever I want. But really, what is that I want to do? I can go to any grad school I can do whatever profession, but what do I want? I've put thought into law school, and have actually shown some interest in the field of prosecution for animal cruelty... But An-Son denies that this is a lucrative career, he's probably right. Then there's doing a post-bac for nursing. It's like every filipino's backburner weapon. Nursing is in our genes, if we fail at something else we just take on the medical field. But, I swear... I feel like I'm meant to do something else with my life. Then there's clinical psychology. I love the field, I love the material... But I seriously will probably hate all the research. But if I think about it, if I had to do research in any field, I would mostly enjoy the psych field. I'm empathetic, and a scholar -- not to mention I have an innate understanding of the human psyche. Which leads me to my next thought, if I grow weary of pursuing a clinical psychology MA, or decide it's not for me... I could use it towards social work. It's probably a really difficult field to endure, but I bet it's quite rewarding.

It's like I'm coming to the end of the tunnel, I saw the light, but now I'm being blinded by the possibilities. The end of this tunnel is a huuuuge opening to a vast amount of opportunity. I need to harness my talents and choose something that can make a difference.

So here I am now, sitting in my kitchen typing in this blog window, instead of researching definitions from different scholarly journals and I'm dying to be done with this school stuff! This weekend I have a sorority retreat at big bear. Ahhh and with all this rain I am certain that there'll be fresh powder. I'm looking forward to it. PS. I am so cute in boarding gear. Don't be jealous!

The boyfriend made me food for dinner and hazelnut milk. (BOMB) He's now watching a movie he rented from redbox to stay out of my hair. Little does he know I've been tinkering away on the computer avoiding research. It's good to have people who love you in your life. Support transcends any medicine.

Well I guess I can't prolong this anymore.

See You Soon...

Love,
Magnolia

Another Update 2010

To be apart of something.
Everyone wants that.

I'm reading The Beach. It's pretty good.

I have a research paper due tomorrow at 9, i haven't even read the guidelines. I'm exhausted from the day and I wish I could just really curl up in bed and read.

My family is great. I love themmmm

F O

fuck
off